Saturday, November 15, 2008

Missing Mom




Hard Times ... Dad had a massive heart attack on Jun 9, 2006. He ended up having to have a triple by-pass done. He was in U of L for almost 2 weeks. Mom stayed by his side and took care of him like any wife would do. After Dad got to come home Mom was trying to take care of him and work at her Beauty shop too. She told me one day late in August that she knew something was wrong with her ... she just did not know what it was. She kept getting worse. So, finally she went to the doctor. After many many tests they told her that she did not have cancer. She went back for another set of tests a few days later and they finally found out the problem. She was disnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. She went through Chemotherapy and Radiation treatments all they did was make her sick. They did noto shrink the cancer like the doctors thought. After spending several days in the hospital Mom got to come home on Thanksgiving day 2006. She told the doctor that she wanted to die at home with her family and friends and that is exactly what she did. The morning that she passed away there was a hosuefull of people that she loved.


I sat by her side for many hours. Not knowing what to say or what else that I could do but simply be there. She got to the point that even though she kne she was going to a better place she was afraid. She was hainvg panic attacks right and left. I was listening one day to The Rochesters and I heard a song called "Brighter Day" I learned the song and sang it for Mom and she seemed to be eased from the fear of death. That would result in that song being sang atleast 5 times each day, she simply loved that song. Another song that they sing is "In His Time" was a blessing as well. We were all praying that the Lord would see fit for the cancer to be gone. But that was not his plan.

Christmas is and was OUR favorite time of the year. We would always go to Elizabethtown and go Christmas Shopping together (whenever we could) and we would buy the prettiest Christmas ornament that we could find and exchange them. I really miss that. I miss going Christmas shopping with her. I miss talking to her. I miss fussing with her. I miss sitting at the shop and gabbing with her. I miss having her fix my hair: only she could get this almost black hair frosted to the shade that I liked! I miss our phone conversations. I miss eating her cooking: especially Chocolate Gravy & Biscuits. All Moms can be grouchy or even seem mean at times but you never know what you truly have until they are gone. I have a lot of the things that were hers, and I cry every time that I use them. Moms should never be taken for granted because as with everything else in life one day ... they are no longer there.

Mom had not even been gone a year and Dad had a massive stroke. He now resides with my brother in Franklin. My sister never comes around or calls. When you think about it except for my husband and my 3 children my earthly family is gone. Thank GOD for my CHURCH family! I truly believe without them I would have gone crazy a long time ago!

Well, Mom will soon be gone to Heaven 2 years this up and coming December 2nd. I know that I am a grown married woman and mother of 3 ... But I still miss my Mom.

Good Smelling Saturday


I got up this morning at 5:30 and got ready for work. I left later than usual today, no biggy. I got there just in time to clock in and get the morning started. I took my first break at 8:30 - 8:45 like always. Headed back in and took some more calls. My normal lunch is at 10:30 clocking back in at 11:00. Not today though I went to lunch alsmost 15 minutes late, no worries. Came back in and took more calls. FINALLY, I left work at early at 12:00 (I am not supposed to leave until 3:30) Anhow, I came home and picked up Rachel and Sis. Lisa and we headed to Elizabethtown. Our first stop was at the Mall. I wanted to go into Bath And Body because I had a coupon that was burning a hole in my pocket. They had a SALE going on today! Buy one get one at half price! I got two tubes of Vanilla Bean Noel body cream, a oil burner, and a tube of thier wonderful peppermint lip gloss while Rachel picked out Vanilla Bean Noel lotion a body spray. Sis. Lisa got her some Vanilla Bean Noel body cream too. Rachel went to another store and got her some more body spray this time she picked out Coconut. Then we headed over to Cracker Barrell to get some Christmas Ornaments. While we were there we decided to get a bite to eat. We all 3 ordered salads ... I LOVE thier homemade croutons! I gathered all of the left over salad and was taking it home to my husband when less than 5 miles from the house ... it slid out of the seat and landed upside down in the floor! No More Salad! We headed home after taking Sis. Lisa to her house. I have to say my spirits were a little higher after spending some time out of the house and away from work. It was a great day!